Why I Do What I DO

THIS IS MY WHY! This is why I do what I do!

**WARNING** A couple of F-bombs and a S-bomb lie ahead. To those that may get offended proceed with caution or turn back now...

I am currently taking this AMAZING marketing course called The Bodywork Project that is challenging me at every turn. I used to run from challenges. It was easier to run than to face whatever lay on the other side because it was unknown. And what lies in the unknown, who knows?! That’s why they call it the unknown. I was a person who needed answers. I needed to know why I was supposed to do something because then there was a reason to do it. So, when this marketing class challenged me to find my why, I thought “Oh, I know the answer to this!”

The questions were “Why do you do what you do? What’s the PURPOSE? What’s YOUR purpose? What’s your cause? What do you believe?”

I thought to myself “Yes! I got this! I can answer all of these questions so easily. I already had this all planned out. This class is going to be sooo easy!”

When my teacher Mindy asked me what my why was, I lifted my head proudly because I knew the answer and I said “Because I want to help people!” To which she replied something along the lines of: I question if helping people needs to be a little more defined. It was mostly a blur after that. “WHAT?! But I knew the answer to that question?!” I thought “How can you get more defined than helping people?” These words resounded over and over in my head. Then, I questioned myself “What am I helping people to do? Why am I even doing this? Should I even be doing this? I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I AM DOING!!! Maybe I have it all wrong. Maybe I shouldn’t even be doing this. Maybe I am on the wrong path yet again.”

All of the doubts over taking my mind made me want to run away and hide. Disappear like I never even existed. FUCK THIS CLASS and FUCK THIS SHIT!!! I’m out! Peace! I don’t know exactly what that meant, but that's how I felt in that moment. I WAS DONE!

I, of course, wasn’t really done. I was just throwing a fit about it all. I just needed a minute. Everyone needs a minute, just a minute to throw a fit. Just get it out! Get it outside of you, so that you can breathe and move on to your next step. It’s okay to throw a fit. It’s okay to have that minute. It is necessary to get whatever it is outside of yourself so that you can see clearly again.

Now that I was done throwing my fit, it was time to “put my big girl panties on” and move forward with my why. Let’s try this again. Why do I do what I do? As I pondered on and sat with this question over the next week, I wondered why am I even here? What was all of this for? Was it all just to bring me to this moment in my life, to bring me to this question? Is this where it all ends? HELL NO! My story does NOT end here! I WILL answer this question, and it will be the truth to my existence here in the place we call the world. This I know for sure!

About 9:30 am Central Standard Time this morning--Thursday, February 6th, 2020--in the tiny town of Isabella, Oklahoma, I, Kristy Denton, discovered the meaning of life! Well, I discovered the meaning of my life anyway. I AM HERE TO LEARN! I am here on this planet we call earth to learn about me. Yes, its nothing I didn’t already know. It wasn’t some profound information coming in from the cosmos to save all of humanity. It was something that I have known all along. It was something that I have told other people. It wasn’t a big secret hidden deep in the depths of a dark cave surrounded by booby traps and protected with a curse designed to harm anyone who may try to obtain the answer. The answer has been right there in front of me all along. I am here to learn about myself. I am here to learn what I can do. I am here to step into my power-whatever that looks like for me. I am here to learn who I am and in return I can hold a space for others to do the same. The answer is SELF-REALIZATION (thanks Dr. John).

So, how does this answer the question "Why do you do what you do?" Through my CranioSacral Therapy classes I am brought face-to-face with myself. At each one of my classes, I am challenged to do my own work so that when I leave each class, I am able to go out and work with other people so they can do the same. I do what I do to learn about myself. I do what I do to break through all of the trauma in my life that has shifted my perspective and altered my identity. I do what I do to break through the box of the doctrine that had been spoon fed to me throughout my entire life from every angle. I do what I do to break through all of the propaganda to get to MY TRUTH. I do what I do to learn about me, so I can love me, like really love me. By loving myself, I am able to love and appreciate my cracks, and my depths, and my curves, and my highs, and my lows, and my darkness, and my light, ALL OF IT. I do what I do to love myself—the good, the bad, and the ugly. I do what I do to learn to love myself so much that I can hold a space for others to do their own self-healing—their own self-awareness work. THIS IS MY WHY! This is why I do what I do!

When you come for a session with me, my goal is to relax your Total Body, Mind, And Spirit so you can feel your SELF again! It is in the space of complete stillness where the real healing begins.

I leave you with these words from the late, great Dr. John Upledger:

“The secret something that is shared by all healing methods is the process of leading the patient to an honest and truthful self-discovery. The self-discovery is required for the initiation and continuation of self-healing for it is only through self-healing - in contrast to curing - that patients can experience both permanent recovery and spiritual growth...the closer our perception of self approaches, the deeper our capacity for self-healing becomes. When there is a very close correspondence of self-image and truth, our healing powers may be virtually unlimited.”